Meditate on this, I will.

It hurts me as much as it hurts you. I miss you as much as you miss me, maybe two times more. I think about you as much as you think about me. I weep as much as you weep about me. I still love you infinity times two. This isn’t just your break-up, it’s mine too. My heart still aches just for you. It sucks that my mind can’t agree with my heart. I’m sorry.

Love Pill (Short Story)

I was walking in the freezing cold yesterday. I was just relaxing enjoying the cold air hit me. As I was walking I saw a pill on the ground. It was pink, and was inside a clear wrapper, with red letters that read “Love.” I stuck it in my pocket and walked on. The whole day I was thinking on whether I should take it or not. questioning what it would do to me. Would it make me delirious? Will it make me sick? Even worse, would it kill me? It was on my mind all day. When I arrived home i threw it on the bed, I went to the restroom to take a shower, as soon as I walked out the pill looked as if it was glowing, just calling out my name. “Luis, Luis… Luis, just take me, take me, I won’t hurt you.” I’m holding it; I begin to think it’s not so bad after all. Then, suddenly I opened the wrapper, and I took it. A deep exhaustion hit me right after, I fell asleep and didn’t wake up until the morning to go to school. I noticed as I was getting ready my stomach felt warm and fuzzy, my knees became weak, and it felt like I was floating. 

I never really had this feeling hit me before. When I arrived at school, I saw the girl I’ve had a crush on since the beginning of the school year. She usually never notices me, because I see her before 1st period, after 3rd, during lunch, i have her for 5th, and I see her walk to her car, since we take the same route anyway, but today she noticed me and waved with a beautiful smile. I didn’t know what to do, I was so nervous, and like the dork that I am, I forgot I had my binder In my right hand and I waved at her dropping all of my work. She kept walking as I began to pick up my stuff, but looked back and smiled as she left. Lunch came around and I wasn’t even hungry, and I noticed I wasn’t as concentrated. After 4th period my walk to 5th suddenly became a lot longer. As I approached the classroom my heart began to beat faster and faster, and when I walked in, it was like watching the sun rise, or witnessing a garden of flowers bloom in spring, simply beautiful.  She was sitting in the seat right next to mine. She spoke to me, and it turned out that we had a lot in common and I wasn’t nervous talking to her at all. She was a simple, smart, nice, beautiful girl.

The next day we talked even more and this time we hung out after school. We went to the park and were just laughing and joking around, being silly. Then she told me how much she liked me, she said she always did. At that moment I began to think if that pill had anything to do with this. Like if it was magically put there from cupid himself, just for me to find love. It can’t be, a simple pill can not make two people fall in love; that would be insanity. I told her I felt the same way and after that our lips touched, with the beautiful sunset sky, the sound of the wind as it passes through the leaves, the best moment ever, nothing ever compared to that moment.

After that, her and I were inseparable. We loved each other, and one day as we were walking through the cafeteria I seen the pill again, and another one, and ten more, until I seen every kid in the school had one. I forgot what the month of February meant;  It turns out it was just candy.

Dear Future Wife,

This is a letter for you. I hope you know that I love you. Since I’m married, I guess you can say I fell deeply in love with you. You must make me very happy, and you’re probably silly, make me laugh, your smile can light up the world; my world. I just want to let you know what you have.

You have someone that will be there whenever you need him. You have someone that will tell you how beautiful you are everyday. You have someone who will make you laugh, smile, and give you happiness. You’re very important to me and it would be horrible if anything ever happened to you, I don’t know how I would ever be able to live with myself. 

I would cook for you, give you a break whenever you desire, and most of the time you won’t need to ask. Whenever you feel tired I will let you rest, lay down, I will handle things. I will be there for you both emotionally, and physically. My arms will always be open for you, my ears will always be ready to listen, and I will always be ready to do whatever you need me to do.

I will treat you right, just how you need to be treated. I will give you the affection and love you need. I would stop what ever I’m doing for you, because you’re more important. You’re the most important person in my life. 

I will show you things you’ve never seen before, beautiful scenery, places, and things. All of these beautiful things will not be able to compare to you, because you’re the most beautiful to me. In a room of a thousand people, and I only see you. Don’t worry about money, we’ll have enough. Don’t worry about love, I’ll show you more. Don’t worry about your safety, I’ll be your superman. 

Sincerely,

your husband

When you; asked me to; be with you; I never thought you would do; what you did to me to benefit you; My broken heart, split in many places, more than just two; I wanted true love; I looked away; I was done; But, then I heard; So, I turned; I saw deviled eyes; You came back in; I loved you more; You left me with a lie.

I forgive you, but I don’t want you in my life anymore.

This aching pain in my chest

baby blue birds in their nest

I don’t want this pain anymore

They’ve never experienced life before

So I’ll let it go, waving it goodbye

One day they’ll know how to fly

A new beginning is what I need

As I watch momma blue bird feed

I think, little do they know

One day she will go

Don’t worry baby blue birds

I know what it’s like to lose someone you love

The thought of being great is greater than being great, because once I’m great being greater just doesn’t seem all that great I think being more than good enough is just great. Great for me.